Groove

Some days are better than others.  I'm sure everyone can attest to that.

Yesterday we were rockin' and rollin'.  I was honored to be the listening ear for a friend who was not in a groove-who felt like she was climbing an uphill battle.  I tipped my head to her, gave some advice, sent a text-hug and hoped that a glass of wine would help her out.  I, on the other hand, was in a great groove with my littles.

But some days aren't like that.  The tables turned and today I felt frustrated, sad, tired and out of my groove. I tried to start fresh.  At least 20 times.  And it works, but you just have to keep going.  Keep movin' on.

Maybe it's because we are fresh back from vacation.  The kids can't remember what our routine is or where their favorite toys are.  I'm sure they just wanted to be outside, catching "nimmows" with their cousins.  But reality is, the cottage is behind us, no matter how heavy that makes our heart.

 I miss those early morning walks to the dock-sometimes before many others are awake.  I don't think I can wait 360 days to go again.

Especially when it's a day where everything is a battle.  Hugh won't let me put on his shorts. Eli wants a different fruit.  Nobody can find their shoes.  The car alarm is going off (again! me too sarah).  Nobody is patient or kind or uses soft words.

But and so.... tomorrow we start new. Fresh. We keep movin' on.  And I remind myself that we are given these chances to muddle through the hard stuff so we can appreciate the good days.  When it's easier.

When everyone listens to each other.  When the dance party is more than one song long.  When it's not every battle, but the right ones that I pick.

 When we are up north.

So tonight I give myself the advice that I gave my friend yesterday.  I smile at the message my sister sent, who feels happy, had a good day and feels confident in choices her family is making.  I look at pictures from our trip and I smile a sad/happy smile knowing the little E-Case had an amazing trip.  He relished it all. He lived and loved it.

 We don't have to be "up north" to have these times, these moments. I don't have to wait 360 days to go on bug hunt adventures or wake up with new energy.  So cheers to all you mamas who are doin' it, regardless of a rough, tough or beautiful day.