My last in last-- Part 1

It's taking me a long time to sit down and write about my last.  Well...will he be my last? For now he is.  My littlest. I'm most emotional about him and need a few posts to get it all out.

Just about 3 months ago you came into my life.  Look at those gorgeous pictures of you in your first 24 hours.  Who looks THAT good when they are fresh out of the womb?  How confusing it must be in that situation--just trying to figure anything out.  I love your every expression.  But you already look so different.  In just 3 months.   But I know you in those pictures.  And I know you in these pictures too.

Someone just told me that you are "ridiculously photogenic".  Well Mr. Crosby, I couldn't disagree.  But!  I think in general---you are JUST THAT CUTE.  Keep it up. 

Tomorrow is a new day.  Although I've been back to work for 1 week now, I haven't physically been away from you for more than 3 or 4 hours.  You were lucky to have your grandparents care for you during my first week back to work so I could come upstairs and see you and feed you.

This week you will be gently handed to Miss Brenda. You will get your milk from a bottle instead of your mama.  She will pick you up (hopefully) when you cry.  And she will make sure your bum is dry all day long. 

I know it will be good.  You'll be good.  I'll be good.  And all day I'll tell myself what I tell other mom's who go through this whole back-to-work experience: you are gonna sleep for most of the day. I do tell other moms this because you know what---you WILL sleep for most of the day.  Right?
And! You will have Hugh in the background.  He'll be there to make you feel right at home-safe and sound-with his humming and singing and reminding Miss Brenda "Crosy needs you.  Crosy cros cros cros".   He will say that to her.  And that makes my heart slow down a little.  You two will get this time together and I'm trusting him to help you out just as Eli helped him.

So have fun on this adventure Crosby P.  Make sure to be patient with Miss Brenda, but also let her know who is boss (if it's not you, then it's Hughie).  Drink your milk slow and steady and give your best burps.  Don't do anything new or for the first time when you are with her.  Don't let mama's tears confuse you----I love you and will be counting down the minutes until I get to smell your baby smell. Oh--and if you could, just sleep the whole time.  

more on my last in last to come....